Mutterings and utterings of a budding novelist

Fallen Tears

โ€˜Lucifer, when this is all over, Iโ€™ll finally have the gift to go that realm, tear down the pillars of Heaven, and drag the bloodied carcass of that God from his celestial throne.โ€™

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New chapter here. ๐Ÿ™‚ War is coming from all angles now.
When I started writing this I wasn’t sure whether to include the Heaven/Hell aspects as I’d done that already with Last Battle. But it feels right to include it now.

DISCLAIMER: As always this tale is a first draft. Itโ€™s unchecked, unedited, and is pretty much as raw as I can type. Hence why itโ€™s free. So no pointing out mistakes please! Cheers!

Celeste glanced over and grinned, flicking a riglet of blonde hair from her face, seductively narrowing her eyes. โ€˜I wonder what her insides taste like?โ€™

Fallen Tears Chapter Header Chapter 13Another chapter in Hell for the Dancescu’s – getting closer to their demonic uncle.
Chapter 13 is here.

DISCLAIMER: As always this tale is a first draft. Itโ€™s unchecked, unedited, and is pretty much as raw as I can type. Hence why itโ€™s free. So no pointing out mistakes please! Cheers!

The Muse of True Love


And now for something quite off track that I’m used to writing. ๐Ÿ˜€

Unbeknownst to most people I know, the concept and notion of love is something that dominates quite a lot of my life, and even drives me to work, write, and paint. Even though I rarely talk about it.
Fuelled by an unhealthy obsession of 80’s movies, old Disney films and power ballads, I think I have beliefs about love that many would consider unrealistic.

I’ve used the idea of a perfect romance as a kind of muse in all my workings. And even though it’s not quite obvious when reading my writings (especially with some of the gorier work!), a simple scratch of the surface will show it’s subtle undertones of love.
In my screenplay of Last Battle, the protagonist’s only drive was to return to his wife and child, willing to go head first against the armies of Hell in the name of love. And likewise in the same tale, I penned about a couple – one controlled by Heaven, one unwillingly controlled by Hell desperately fighting it out amid the fires of the underworld, trying to understand what has become of them. Another character fights in the belief that his long lost love can still see him, and uses this notion to give him courage.
With Tapestry of Fates I wanted to build up the story and characters own paths within the wars in the first book, before helping them to understand there’s more to life than just fighting in the second book, which of course leads to some romantic interventions, in turn causing the subsequent battles against E-Clipse to become more desperate and heartfelt.
This is route I’m planning with Fallen Tears also, as the twins near the source of the vampiric reign, I want to introduce a kind of romantic spanner in the works without altering the book as a whole.

So why is it that a bloke writing so much about love has remained single for quite a few years now (insert wise crack here about not being able to get a girlfriend)? I’ve been on dates after all, and that’s something I do enjoy greatly, but that could be because I love getting to know new people.
It’s no secret that I’m quite an emotional fella. Not in the crying sense, but as in deeply feeling everything around me. I hate nothing more than seeing people upset and would move mountains to make people happy. Sometimes being overly emphatic can be seen as a weakness, as it’s a trait easily exploited.
I guess I can only say that I don’t yearn for just a simple coupling, sleeping around, or jumping in and settling down with the first person that shows interest. Like my stories, I want meaning to develop before anything else.
Rather I feel I have an eye open for that perfect romance I like to write about; a chivalrous, all-consuming, soul-burning love that many believe doesn’t exist.
And does that kind of love exist? I feel I’ve seen enough evidence in this world to believe so.
Do I believe it’ll come to me? Maybe. Maybe not.
Does it make a fussy bastard? Some might even say I’ve not right to be fussy! ๐Ÿ˜€ But it’s something I won’t try to force, not sell my soul to achieve.
Whilst I’ve seen how true love can create Heaven for some, I’ve also seen it create misery in others. There’s nothing worse than regret, and living beside someone for mere convenience without any affection is one of the biggest in life.

Perhaps I even put off the idea of becoming fully involved with someone as the muse of love is such a powerful working drive for me. At times in the past I’d even use the thought of a some particular girl in order to push forward my work. But now I think it’s more of the notion itself that helps spurn my creativity.
It’s a surprise to read that Napoleon Hill wrote a similar idea in his book Think and Grow Rich – a chapter called “The Mystery of Sex Transmutation” that was removed in the early editions, with it being seen as too risque for the audiences of the 1930’s. Basically it describes that many of the successful businessmen at the time turned their desires of sex into a powerful drive that spurned them to work hard.

So whilst I’ve rambled on over one of the most boring blog utterings I’ve ever posted, whilst simultaneously giving my mother a heart attack about the possible lack of grandchildren, I wonder how I’ll end this in a suitable way.

One of the greatest things I’ve ever seen in fiction is J.K.Rowling’s Severus Snape. Whilst we all spent many books and movies believing Snape was a cold-hearted, wicked man with a terrible agenda, the saddest part came when we learned the truth about his love for Harry’s mother, gently hinted at in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

โ€œDumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.
“After all this time?”
“Always,” said Snape.โ€

As tragic as this story arc is, it’s the semblance I adore. And the willingness to sacrifice himself even for his love’s offspring is pretty much as deep as you can get.


โ€˜So youโ€™re here to stop us entering Hell?!โ€™ shouted Darcie, holding her sword up at the demon. โ€˜Good luck with that!โ€™

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Back on track with this tale now.
And time to get things seriously messed up as the vampiric twins prepare to enter Hell.

Part 13 (Chapter 10) can be downloaded here!

DISCLAIMER: As always this tale is a first draft. Itโ€™s unchecked, unedited, and is pretty much as raw as I can type. Hence why itโ€™s free. So no pointing out mistakes please!ย  Cheers!

…the chains and shackles fell from the red-haired woman, and her two captors quickly jumped back several feet. โ€˜Kill them all Kaitlyn!โ€™ roared Celeste.

Finally! Another chapter added!

And a massive battle for the Dancescu twins in this one. I’ve always tried to keep this tale a little bit gory and horrific, but I’m not sure if I’ve gone too far with this chapter, especially with it’s ‘Scanners’ type influence.

Anyway, I’m happy with the direction it is going now, and it’s growing into a far larger story than I originally envisaged.

Chapter 9 can be acquired from the page at the top, or here. ๐Ÿ™‚

DISCLAIMER: As always this tale is a first draft. Itโ€™s unchecked, unedited, and is pretty much as raw as I can type. Hence why itโ€™s free. So no pointing out mistakes please! ;) Cheers!


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The End of 2013, and the Future on the Flip of a Coin

Well I can honestly say it’s been a turbulant yet welcome end to the year in which big changes in my life have occured. I think now more than ever I’ve gained greater faith in my future and allowed myself to ‘let go’ of things which no longer serve me. Time to step into 2014 with my head held high and a wonderful sense of fresh hope.

But enough of that, and more about the work! I’m underway with the character designs for Bloodline Saga, with Sammy’s characters sketched and ready to be done. Also I’ve got lots more planned for Fallen Tears, with new twisted enemies and situations to throw at our determined and vengeful Dancescu twins.ย  I am even in the process of illustrating a large painting with most of the main characters on it. Once this book is finished I’ll be releasing it for free digitally aswell as print a few copies for whomever wants one.

Kens Characters 4

I’m still planning the massive amount of images for Spirit’s Pain. The book itself is just about to be edited. Because this is my most cherished piece of work I don’t want to rush it and screw it up. The last book Spirit’s Fury will be fully penned soon too, leading the way for the next three installments – The Shadoed Brethren.

Along with this, the planned nineteen books for Phoenix await my attention patiently. This could take many many years to write. I’m just glad I won’t be illustrating them ha!

So nobody can say I’ve got no work to be getting on with.

Which brings me to a great little story I was told a couple of weeks ago.

Whilst searching for design jobs, a pal of mine got me a job at her work, as a hotel porter. Obviously this means doing the usual stuff entailed with this role, carrying bags around, moving furniture around and helping guests etc. It’s a far cry from sitting at a desk calmly ploughing through design work, but the change of pace has been great. I’ve enjoyed the experience so far, and all the staff are awesome.

One of the staff, the head porter called David, who is an awesome jovial man and has been showing me the ropes, told me a story of how he came to work at the hotel, and stay in the position for over thirty-seven years. I liked it so much I thought I’d share it on my blog.

For those who know or have been to Blackpool – most will be aware that on the Southern edge of the resort, situated amongst the sand-dunes was a Pontins holiday camp (now sadly bulldozed to the ground). Many years ago David and a pal of his would venture to Blackpool from Liverpool in search of Summer work. One particular Summer landed the pair working at Pontins. Whilst checking in, David enquired where his room key was. He was politely informed that there was no need for a key, as the door was hanging off. Not a great start as you can imagine. So now David and his friend found themselves residing in the staff quarters – affectionately referred to as ‘the jungle’. Apparantly fights between the staff (mainly women David tells me!) happened constantly in the jungle, and the relentless rowdiness caused the pair to leave Pontins in search of alternative work.

As they stepped out onto the road outside Pontins they looked around, debating what to do next. The obvious choice would be to head into the bright lights of Blackpool, as the other direction seemed to be an empty road, with a quiet looking town in the distance (St. Annes! My town if you didn’t know!) But the two decided to flip a coin instead. Heads they turn right and head into Blackpool, where work is pretty much guaranteed. Or Tails, turn left and head down the long sandy road towards St. Annes (they didn’t even know its name at this point).

It was Tails.

To cut a long story short, after trekking into St. Annes David ended up working at the hotel I am now, and his friend started working at the town’s Conservative club.

As I’ve said in previous posts, I’m a great believer in quantum physics and this implies that another David landed Heads and went into Blackpool, thus taking his life in a completely different direction and changing his world as well as the lives of everyone at the hotel. I wonder if he found a job as a porter in Blackpool and stayed there for as long as he has in St. Annes.

It just shows that sometimes you need to place your destiny in the hands of fate.

‘Ok, let’s go to Hell then. Let’s destroy that bloody demon, and rid ourselves of this curse once and for all.’

Chapter 7 of Fallen Tears has been uploaded and can be viewed or downloaded here.It can also be taken from the link at the top of the page. ๐Ÿ™‚

DISCLAIMER: As always this tale is a first draft. Itโ€™s unchecked, unedited, and is pretty much as raw as I can type. Hence why itโ€™s free. So no pointing out mistakes please! ;) Cheers!

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‘You’ve had this coming for a long time my friend,’ Chantelle whispered. ‘Ever since you bathed that town in blood.’

Another chapter of Fallen Tears is complete – and a fight between two friends of mine.

Part 9 (Chapter 6) can be downloaded here! ๐Ÿ˜€

Or it can be taken from the link at the top with the other chapters.


DISCLAIMER: As always this tale is a first draft. Itโ€™s unchecked, unedited, and is pretty much as raw as I can type. Hence why itโ€™s free. So no pointing out mistakes please! ;) Cheers!

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‘You ready Chantelle?’ Lauria laughed. ‘For today, I promise you will die.’

At last, I finally found time to write another Fallen Tears chapter.

This is part 8 (Chapter 5).

My friends Laura and Chantelle both have characters in this chapter, and both have spoken to me that they want their own character to win if there’s a ruckus between the two. This could prove to be either a nightmare for me or a great deal of fun! ๐Ÿ˜€

It can be downloaded from the top with the other chapters. Or here. ๐Ÿ™‚


DISCLAIMER: As always this tale is a first draft. It’s unchecked, unedited, and is pretty much as raw as I can type. Hence why it’s free. So no pointing out mistakes please! ๐Ÿ˜‰ Cheers!

‘Savour your final seconds of life!’

Once again it’s that time of the month. No, not that! ๐Ÿ˜›

The seventh part of my free monthly novel Fallen Tears is available and can be downloaded here.

Thanks ๐Ÿ™‚

‘Today, I will tear the name of Dancescu from this world!’

The sixth part (Chapter 3) of my monthly gothic vampire tale is now uploaded and can be downloaded here.

Thanks for reading ๐Ÿ™‚

Fallen Tears Update

“Half 2” I solemnly announce when quizzed about what time I got to sleep by my friend each morning as I make my way to work.

Depsite my friend’s unnapproving sighs and the fact I get sleepy on my lunch break, I’ve a big reason to be needing to work so much at the moment. Not only is my fabulous girlfriend Wendy training her bawatty off for her competitions (well done on winning the last one a few days ago hun!) but I’m doing my best to market Sprit’s Destiny, help other people with their work, and keep on top of all other commitments.

I recently joined a website called ‘Authonomy’ owned by Harper Collins. Basically it’s a bit like Facebook for novelists where people can comment on each other’s work, offer advice and criticism, and rate their novels in the hope that their book will be pushed up high in order to get noticed by Harper Collins themselves.

Now since I’m unable to put Spirit’s Destiny on there (why would I put a book I’m selling on there for all to read to free?) I have stuck my monthly blog novel Fallen Tears on there. Despite simply being an experiment and an excersise, and acknologing some of the legendary work on Authonomy, I was quite surprised to find a number of folk giving it a thumbs up. So now I’m pushing a bit more energy behind this little tale. Who thought vampire novels were still in demand eh? Next chapter this weekend!

Also if you do decide to take a look on Authonomy I recommend reading a book calledย Chaeli: Scion of Blood by Kara Thrace. It’s a great epic fantasy that will surely take the talented writer on her way to stardom. ๐Ÿ™‚


โ€˜Their souls drip with the blood of gods!โ€™ Voracity cried. โ€˜I must have it!โ€™

Finally got the second chapter (5th installment) of my free novel Fallen Tears uploaded.

At last the main protagonists meet the antagonists for the first time, including the ravenous child Voracity.

The chapter can be downloaded here.


Thanks for reading ๐Ÿ™‚

Fallen Tears – Chapter 1

Now the introduction is complete with the three prologues, it’s time to up the pace with the first chapter and introduce to fully grown Dancescu twins.

The first chapter can be downloaded from the page at the top, or here.

Thanks to all have read the tale so far.

P.S. Please bear in mind this is a very hastily written story (a chapter a month after all) and as of which the grammar may not be completely perfect. Thanks ๐Ÿ™‚

Fallen Tears – Prologue 3

The third part of my monthly novel is now free to download.

Either from the link at the top at the top of the page or here.

Thank you for reading. ๐Ÿ™‚

Fallen Tears – Prologue 2

The second part of my monthly novel is now free to download.

Either from the link at the top at the top of the page or here.


Thank you for reading ๐Ÿ™‚

Whoever heard of a robotic angel?

I’ll be honest, Uni was pretty much a big waste of time for me! Not having a proper tutor for the entire first year, getting myself in major debt, and forgetting just about everything there is to learn about Animation just about sums up how pointless for me it was.

There were good things mind! I had a blast whilst I was there, it helped push me towards the wrtiting side of productions, helped with my art, and I got to throw my mortar board in the air at graduation. Uni was also responsible for giving me a character that I have been determined to put in every piece of writing I create even if I had to change her to a pink-haired human if necessary.

One of our assignments was to create an original character based upon two completely different subjects or genres. For instance one of my friends created a Transvestite Gladiator. I decided to combine Robots and Angels, and named my character Cyphangel. Her back story was that she was an assasination droid, built in pinks and purples to deceive her targets. We had to construct these characters using a crude armature and plasticine.

To this day that model remains at my dad’s house, and Cyphangel has morphed into simply ‘Angel’. She has also give rise to my sister’s and friend Symon’s fave character – the childlike, four sword, two gun wielding Seraphim. So far both character’s have appeared in both Tapestry of Fates and Phoenix, serving as a link to the two tales.

Recently I was quite disheartened to see a character in Tekken 6 paying more than a slight resemblence to Angel, in both looks (pink hair) and storyline.Thankfully I could never be accused of stealing as it’s nearly a decade since I left uni.

Now I’m due to put Angel into Fallen Tears.

Has anyone heard of a robotic, vampire angel?

Fallen Tears – Free Online Novel

Finally, the 1st Prologue has been completed for my gothic vampire tale and will be uploaded tonight.

Starting the next chapter as soon as possible.


Thankyou to anyone who takes the time to read this piece of work. x


Fallen Tears Novel Update

Still penning the character list for my online novel. Unlike Tapestry of Fates I’ve done the same as I did with Last Battle and write out an exhaustive list of the characters. There’s quite a large roster of people in this (plenty of vampire fodder) with very few characters based on people I know ๐Ÿ˜€

Here’s one of the evil characters that is a little bit inspired by Kirsten Dunst in Interview with a Vampire.

I’ve named this 8 year old vamp Voracity after the amount of blood and humans (and even fellow vamps and demons) she gorges on.

I could’ve spent a bit more time on this photomanip but I’ve got to get back to work ๐Ÿ˜€

The adolescent evil vampire Voracity

Fallen Tears – Blurb

The Blurb (the bit at the back of a book that tells you a little about the story) to my new monthly novel.

This is pretty much all I have to go off the tale so it’ll be interesting for me as well to see how it develops.

When the parents of the young Dancescu twins are brutally murdered by their demonic uncle, they are quickly hurried away to safety, leaving their beautiful country of Tranvaal to be plunged into the deepest recesses of Hell; a land so twisted and blackened that no sunlight or colour can penetrate.

As vicious demons and monstrous vampires roam the countryside, the people of Tranvaal are left in utter despair, fearful of their new ruler and the powerful grip of terror he has over them.

But years later, when any glimmer of hope has been violently torn from the world, two lone figures suddenly appear from the shadows.

The Dancescu twins have returned; fueled with hearts of pure vengeance, and possessing infernal powers. Striding through the lands and slaughtering everything the fires of hell can unleash upon them, they fix their sights on the abode of their nefarious uncle.

Yet as they close in on the source of the vampiric reign, they must resist their own inherited blood-lust if they are to have any chance of destroying this plague of evil and defeating the traitor that destroyed their lives.

New Monthly Novel – Fallen Tears

I’ve noticed recently with all the work I’ve done trying to illustrate and market Book 1 of Tapestry of Fates I’ve had little time to do what I set out to do – write!

I’ve toyed for a while now to do a story for this blog, uploading a new chapter free every month without illustrations, which will serve as a welcome temporary distraction from my other unavoidable workload.

After debating which tale I’d like to do, I’ve decided on the vampiric story I’ve had on the back burner for well over thriteen years (I still have a really old sketch somewhere when it was called Dark Destinies). I think the demand for vampire based literature is still pretty high, although this tale will not be a teenage love story (love elements will be in there though). Another deciding factor for this is the fact my sister recently gave birth to twin boy and girl – the main characters are twin brother and sister, so they will be renamed fittingly.

I know this will please my good friend Laura who keeps requesting I pen this novel. ๐Ÿ˜€

Also I’m heading to Transylvania this November so I may get some inspiration. hehe!

I will write the blurb on my lunch and upload.